Heh. So I've been wanting to do various digital art really badly for the past couple months. Aaaannnnd, my tablet died. Go figure. Of course this was right when I decided I needed to spend as little money as possible. So I can't really justify spending a hundred and something dollars on a decent tablet right now.
So. First quarter is over. It kinda sucked. I mean, I didn't hate anything in particular. Well, that's not true. I hated a few things. The people were nice enough and my classes weren't too bad (not that that's difficult when you're only in three classes). But it still sucked. I guess I just want to meet people and find a place for myself, but I'm so slow with people. I hate it. So I just feel distant and...kind of dead. Okay, very dead. Very, very dead. And while I think I want to meet people, at the same time I wonder if I push them away. I tend to do that. Ugh. It's so easy for me to work with animals...they keep calling me the pet whisperer at work. I know they mean it in a praising way, but it just reminds me how inadequate my communication skills are with humans. How can it be so easy to understand something that doesn't even speak or act the same way as me...and yet it's so hard figuring out people, who speak the same language as I do and have similar mannerisms...??? I hate that I'm so dependent on animals for basic interaction...but I feel comfortable around them. It's a lot easier to talk when I have them around. Maybe it's a crutch for when I don't feel like focusing on me. Either way, I hate that I need that...but I do, and that's just the way it is. Does anyone read this crap anyways?